What Is Behind, What Is Ahead
2019. Acrylic and paper on canvas. 12 x 16 in.
I struggled a lot with this painting. I felt completely lost over and over again, and abandoned it any number of times. I kept coming back to it, convinced that at least I should be able to learn something from it. There were several Hail Mary passes, including the white disks and the construction paper collage pieces. And then there came a point where, suddenly, I loved it. It expressed something I didn’t even know I felt.
That was about a year and a half ago. I’m struggling with a similar sort of disaster in the studio right now – in fact, nothing is going quite right in there. Pushing into new territory. Can’t say it feels good.
Looking forward to joy returning. Aren’t we all, right now? When you’re deep in the struggle, joy seems so far away…