2019. Acrylic and collage on wood panel. 12 x 12 in.
Haven’t been posting because I’ve been painting and not feeling like switching to the talking-about-it channel. I have several new works but haven’t been able to settle down to signing and photographing them.
This is a collage from 2019, done on a cradled wood panel. The smoothness and solidity of wood panels are so different from canvas and provoke different moves from me. The materials here include the green handmade paper, a bit of resume paper, the linear piece of my precious vintage construction paper in a dusty rose, and a disk of matte photo paper painted red. The red netting is, indeed, plastic produce netting from the supermarket. It was gratifyingly easy to shape and glue down.
I enjoy making collages and always feel I’m about to make more, though I rarely actually do. That may change someday. I hope so, as they are a distinct channel with results I don’t get any other way. I think perhaps because I usually base my paintings on line, but the collages are much more about shape.
Anyway, I like this one.
What Is Behind, What Is Ahead
2019. Acrylic and paper on canvas. 11 x 14 in.
I struggled a lot with this painting. I felt completely lost over and over again, and abandoned it any number of times. I kept coming back to it, convinced that at least I should be able to learn something from it. There were several Hail Mary passes, including the white disks and the construction paper collage pieces. And then there came a point where, suddenly, I loved it. It expressed something I didn’t even know I felt.
That was about a year and a half ago. I’m struggling with a similar sort of disaster in the studio right now – in fact, nothing is going quite right in there. Pushing into new territory. Can’t say it feels good.
Looking forward to joy returning. Aren’t we all, right now? When you’re deep in the struggle, joy seems so far away…
2019. Acrylic and paper on panel, 14 x 11 in.
A favorite collage from last year. It’s on a heavy wood panel and feels very stable and solid to me. I guess I wanted that today. The black and colored papers are from my cherished stash of ancient construction paper that I’ve had for many years. The white/ecru bits are cartridge and typing papers, and there’s a slice of silver tissue paper, as well.
The design of the painted background is borrowed directly from a pastel I did at least 20 years ago that got damaged, but I’ve always liked the combination of colors and shapes. So it showed up again here, in acrylic.
I love this piece. It feels so stable and strong, I almost think I could stand on it. A stepping stone into a better future.